Dear Facebook Diary, 1/13/14

I was rather busy during what I hope to be my last Christmas break from college. As usual, I went to Denver for New Year’s and ate a fancy-schmancy meal at Parisi’s and got unclassy drunk off of classy Peanut Newer wine. Peanut wine is my favorite wine and the only white wines that I like are Peanut Gregario and Reading wine. Peanut wine tastes like dark roses and Reading wine tastes like Champion without bubbles, but it gives me the same horrible hangover.

I also babysat my almost 3-year-old nephew for a few days, and despite the time that he screamed in agony because I wouldn’t let him go outside in the snow wearing only his diaper, we mesh rather well. We played with his Aquanauts while watching scuba diving videos on the TV, we danced to the Techno Chicken on YouTube 4,050 times, I read Shel Silverstein poems to him, we took naps together, and I taught him the magical powers of making any food taste better just by putting peanut butter on it. I find it strange that Peanut Newer wine tastes nothing like peanut butter but I still appreciate both of them for their own unique qualities.

What made this New Year’s different was that it was the second year in a row in which I did not kiss a girl or a stuffed raccoon at midnight and it is the first time that I know of in which I do not have a New Year’s resolution. The no kissing thing is because all of the girls at Parisi’s were either married or thirteen and their parents were present, and the raccoon thing didn’t happen because I wasn’t in Nebraska. But I think I’m done with making official New Year’s resolutions. I am already in the process of losing weight and looking like Joseph Gordon-Levitt and because of that I am sleeping more and drinking less. So right fucking there I’m doing two good things at once without having to make some lame fucking cockamamie public resolution to do so. Also, fucking also, I am writing a hell of a lot more. I am not posting what I write on my Coxturbo thing because that isn’t the reason that I’m writing that shit.

            The shit that I am fucking writing right now is fucking children stories. Today I was awakened with a sore lower back and then a couple of spasms as I made my way to Heinz Catsup. Heinz Catsup is the name of my exercise bike and I ride her everyday now; the bike is a girl even though her parents gave her the name ‘Heinz’, I dunno. While riding Miss Catsup I decided that I would spend the day on my cheap Wal-Mart wannabe Lazy-Boy writing some children stories that I’ve had in my head for a few years and a couple that my brother and I talked about. I am almost done with one about a turtle born without a shell (and OMG the whole story rhymes!!) and then I will start on another one about a baby squirrel that hibernates with a family of beavers after his mother dies and when he wakes up he thinks he’s a beaver too. I watched the movie “My Girl” again and even though it fucked with my head and caused me to crucify toads on toothpicks in my backyard as a child due to my inability to cope with Macaulay’s death in the movie, I think that it’s appropriate to discuss death in a children’s story. I also have a story about two groups of Kindergartners waging a battle against each other because of their different beliefs of where the sand shovels came from, only to find out that all of the sand shovels on the playground were placed their by the same janitor (it’s religious. Get it?), and I have like five other kid’s stories in my mind too. I am reading “Finding Alaska” by John Green right now because I think either Cacey Anderson or Jody Milford left it in the Owl Cove of the Fine Arts Building and I snatched it, and the book as well as my natural gift with nephews is inspiring me to write some motherfucking children stories.

To get my creative juices flowing, I am also writing a guide and my opus about diet, exercise, the fun drugs and alcohol, weight lifting, supplements, steroids, vitamins, and anything else bodybuilding and fitness related now that I have given up on all that heavy ass weight and am living a life of cardio and abs and my currently invisible jawline.  I do plan on posting that on my Toxshurbo blog once, or if, I ever get around to finishing it. I think some people would find it very useful and pretty interesting to see how much science I have put into looking good. Did you know that there is an actual scientific study proving that women can lose a significant amount of body fat with nicotine and vodka but it has little to no effect on men? Did you know that vitamin E with tocotrienols is cheap and sold over the counter and I’ve been taking it for years because in pharmaceutical studies it is shown to have a greater effect on preventing hairloss than prescription Propecia does? Yeah, didn’t think so. Well I’m half-assedly writing a whole guide on that stuff whenever I feel like writing about that stuff, and you know, I really do think that a lot of people would benefit from it.

As far as my own getting super lean thing goes I weighed 187.2 pounds on December 11th and this morning I only weighed 177.6 pounds, and both of those measurements were recorded in the nude and without boners. That means that I have lost 36 pounds in only 2 weeks and that number is only going to climb, oh, I mean fall. According to the same scale my body fat is 9.4% but measuring your body fat with an electro-pulse thingy on a weight scale is usually way off, but I will still tell you that it is correct if you are in my apartment and actually looking at the screen stating that I have very low body fat for my age. Did I forget to iron the front of my shirt? Oh no, that’s just my abs.

I am just rambling on now, but today I noticed that I have an ever so slightly thinner face and it is a preview of the gorgeous jawline that is to come. And I am writing stories now with the intention of trying to publish and sell them now. Oh, oh, oh, I am writing a script too! A guy that I know in Denver made an okay movie with the dumbest fucking dialogue that I’ve ever read and he is now in LA with a manager and looking forward to getting paid to write and direct more shitty movies, and it has inspired me to also write a shitty movie with even more retarded dialogue and to make a living off of it. And I do hope to make it here in Nebraska because that is what Nebraska needs, and it will be way fucking cheaper to make it in Nebraska.

Okay. I’m tired now. I am going to bed.  And I just realized that the date 12/13/14 will happen this year. I plan on meeting the girl of my dreams and marrying her on that date. I have a big year ahead of me.

Operation Take Things Down a Snootch 12/11/13

Anyone that knows me personally knows that I am a barbarian of the gym that has attained the utmost of all hardcore physiques. Yesterday I blew a gasket in my left knee while pushing iron with the gumption of a God damn freight train and though the pain has died down from a roar to a rumble overnight, I’m still going to heed caution and stop pushing all that heavy ass weight.

So operation “Take Things Down a Snootch” has begun. Right now I weigh between 185 and 190, and I will not lift weights again until I am down between 160 and 165. I will continue to do a shitload of cardio and little exercise type stuff, but Bruce Lee mode is engaged.

I am naturally a little tiny guy with next to nil body fat. When I moved back here to Kearney in 2009 I only weighed around 150-ish or so because I got into running and cross fit, and my face was all skinny and my jawline was fucking immaculate and the bitches flocked and nibbled at my dingus like the salmon of Capistrano, but then the iron started calling me again and I beefed my muscle structure back up to its prime and all the bitches swam away. So now, now is the time that I reattain that sexy boy body with the abs, and the tight little buttocks, and that beautiful fucking jawline. That jawline, my God, that jawline.

(This is an unusually short post but this might become an ongoing updated thingy with pictures of my abs and maybe that fucking jawline, but I don’t know)

What is the purpose for all of this pain,
Clouds full of love rain throughout me,
Only to be vacuumed into the drain,
Of self doubt and limitless misery.

My love for the world is on permanent pause,
I yearn for the slash of death’s scythe,
As McDonald’s has given me all of this sauce,
And yet I have nothing to dip with.

A poem by Lucas Margaret Cox


And something for the classy basement dwellers…

Random Thought About Homosexuality

My fancily labeled Deist thinking prevents me from arguing against lifestyles like foot worshipping, bestiality (it’s spelled ‘best’ not ‘beast’), face sitting, fart breathing, necrophilia, and whatever other weird but harmless shit some people are into. The thing that all of these weird “lifestyles” have in common is that they are sexual fetishes that have been accepted by their followers as being a way of life. Now, what if, just what if, homosexuality is nothing more than a fetish that has been accepted by its followers as a lifestyle?



People that share the same fetish tend to form groups with others that share their same interests and to support each other, they normally have websites that exploit their sexual desires through pictures and videos for the purpose of fapping to them, and the individual with the fetish usually suffers from stress while coming to terms with their unusual sexual desire for a specific body part, piece of clothing, age group, or maybe even their own gender. This sounds a lot like what a person with homosexual thoughts goes through. Also, a person normally develops a fetish due to something that happens to them in their youth and it has been shown that people who were molested by or had sexual encounters with members of their own gender during their childhood tend to grow into adults that have sexual interest in members of their own sex and maybe feelings of pedophilia as well. I think that’s part of the reason that lots of people think that homo equals pedo, but I think it’s because most older guys look like shit.



Take me for example. I am a devout ass man. If I am unable to find an attractive quality in a girl’s ass then it’s just not going to work between her and I. I mean, if her ass is too fat or too bony then shit starts going wrong and the bitch needs to be kicked to the curb. Not only that, but I dig girls with short hair. I wouldn’t go so far as to call it a fetish because I’ve only ever actually dated one girl that had short hair, but the first three girls that I ever had a crush on as a child all had short hair now it enhances my chubbies. As a child I had crushes on these girls with short hair because they did cool things like play soccer with me and they were tomboys, but they gave me tingles and kiddy boners and that grew into me being an adult that likes shorthaired girls. Add the fact that I am a huge fitness freak and prefer fit ladies and you have a guy that likes muscular girls with a firm ass and short hair. With that list of sexual preferences the only thing that prevents me from jerking off to pictures of Justin Bieber is that her first name is Justin. I consider the fitness thing to be more of a preference to me but I can see how it’s a bit of a fetish. I might dig out unfit girls but I won’t date them, unless they’re rich or famous. But seriously, the only thing that keeps me from being gay is my distaste for body hair and peeners. 



The counter to the idea of homosexing being a fetish is that when I was a Pre-K teacher (true story) I saw a few kids that showed signs of being gay. The one that stands out the most was a five year old boy in Littleton Colorado named Cody that was athletic and bigger than the other kids his age, he looked perfectly normal, his parents dressed him like a boy, but he was gayer than MTV. The kid only hung out with other girls, he played dress-up and tea party, his favorite colors were pink and purple, for show and tell he brought his life sized Barbie doll head to show how he loved to brush her hair, and he looked at the other boys the same way the girls did. I excused myself to go to the bathroom when he began to brush his Barbie doll’s hair because I was laughing so hard that I feared losing bowel control. But what I’m saying is that he was only five years old and he was a boy, but in every way he was like a little girl. I don’t care what anyone says, a five year old is unable to choose whether they are gay or not. About 1 out of every 1,000 babies are born with Klinefelter syndrome or some sort of sexual defect and who’s to say that those defects can’t go past being physical, but are psychological as well. I really don’t think that being gay is genetic because it is impossible to create a child by having sex with someone of your own gender, so the gene wouldn’t exactly be easily past on because at least one of the participants in the baby making process would have to be at least moderately heterosexual.  



On a side note, this is a story that I’ve told to others several times but this five-year-old Cody kid was picked on by some of the other boys because he acted so girly. I can’t remember this one little Puerto Rican boy’s name and I got along with the kid, but he would pick on Cody whenever he got a chance. So one time while I was outside being the lord of the playground during recess, Cody came up to me whining like a bitch about the Puerto Rican boy picking on him. Now Cody was six inches taller than all of the other boys and could probably put up a good fistfight even with myself, so I told Cody to stick up for himself. Cody marched over to the Puerto Rican kid and laid him out with one punch. I had to call Cody’s dad because that was the school’s policy and I got in trouble for telling Cody to stick up for himself instead of putting the Puerto Rican kid in time-out, but when Cody’s dad came to pick him up from school, the dad shook my hand and gave me a little hug. He was happy that I had put Cody in a position where he had to give up his faggy ways in order to do something manly like punching another boy in the face. Even if this manliness only lasted for a moment, it made Cody’s father proud and he thanked me for it. Cody cried like a little girl that got mud on her dress while he climbed into the passenger side of his father’s truck, and his dad drove off with a little smile on his face. A good parent will love their child no matter what but that isn’t to say that it isn’t difficult for them.   



I’m sure that the idea of homosexuality being a fetish has been argued but I’ve never heard it before, and I think it’s a valid argument. Something that pisses me off about people that are against homosexuality or whatever else because of their religious beliefs is that they’re too fucking stupid to put up a legit argument to defend their opinions. This gay being a fetish thing is just something that I was pondering the other day when I was listening to Lady Gaga and watching “So You Think You Can Dance?” while nibbling on some Vanilla Wafers with yogurt and a cosmopolitan to wash it down with, and I thought that I should share it.


Dear Facebook Diary 8/2/13

Dear Facebook Diary,

Today was my birthday and I have no funny stories to tell. So instead I will spew out a few random beliefs that I personally hold and might be unpopular. I was going to crap out several of these opinions, but I am now realizing how agonizingly tired I am. Yeah, I just stopped typing for a minute and went into my kitchen and took two Benadryl. I might be sawing logs before I finish typing this nonsense.  

The first is a small one. I began the daylong celebration of my birth by doing something that I used to do on a regular basis but my life has gotten so wild and crazy that I have been unable to find the time to do it in over four years, and I haven’t missed it at all. I went to the dentist. For starters, I think that it is absolute bullshit that nearly everyone in America believes the lie that they must see the dentist every six months. And why do we have to see the dentist every six months? Because fucking dentists tell us that we do. That’s like buying a new car every two years because the car dealers tell us that we have to. Also, unless I am experiencing pain or I see something wrong in my mouth, I am supposed to believe the dentist when he says that I need to spend a few thousand dollars on fillings or some other weird procedure that he probably made up on the spot with little to no proof. Who knows, maybe dentists are really good at improvisation and they’re just winging it the whole time. They tell you something’s wrong, they pry your mouth open, then drill some holes, fill the holes with something, pull out some teeth, replace the teeth, and then charge you or your insurance dumb shit amounts of money for it. I’m just lying there with my mouth splayed open and full of mini mirrors and tubes and fluoride, and I am supposed to take the dentist’s word for it that there is something wrong in my mouth even though I’ve never noticed it before.  

Now one reason that I do need to get my teeth checked now and then is because my jaw was badly broken in 1999, and they used a now newly discovered steel and hybrid scientific fibers to reconstruct the lower half of my face. Although my jaw was broken in 1999, the metal that the scientists used to rebuild my mandible wasn’t even invented until 2006, and time travel won’t be invented until 2082. So either a specialized time traveling agent sent the metal back in time or maybe in the alternate universe where my jaw was improperly fixed for decades I dedicated my life to and eventually succeeded at inventing time travel for the soul purpose of sending this advanced metal back in time to save the dashing facial aesthetics of my younger self. So anyway, the dental assistant cleaned the stalagmites and barnacles from my teeth, the dentist looked at them, he told me that my teeth and gums were fine, and then he scolded me about how I need to come in every six months. Flippin’ shits, I think the health of your teeth has more to do with what you eat rather than how often you clean them. I’ve seen pictures in National Geographic of human skulls from people that lived thousands of years ago and although toothpaste and floss wasn’t invented or even considered as being needed back then, those ancient skulls still had their damn teeth. So there’s some bullshit and Tom Foolery going on in the dental industry because according to fossils, it may not even be needed. The only real evidence that dentists have to prove their worth is when Tom Hanks was reduced to knocking out his rotten tooth with a rock in the movie “Cast Away”. But even then, Tom Hanks managed to flourish on a tropical island for several years without the biannual checkups with a dentist.

Another one of my strange beliefs is that I do not believe that everyone has a one true love. I acquired this belief after having fallen into and out of love a few times, and seeing other people find their soul mate only to eventually ditch the bitch for a new supposed soul mate. Believing that there is that one special person in the world that is only meant for you, your counterpart, your soul mate, is bullshit. It is an almost religious like belief held amongst everyone that I know; even diehard atheists will hold this magical idea that there is this one special person that was born with the only purpose of hooking up with them forever. Lovey-dovey dating or married dick farts will tell me that I have this belief because I haven’t found my soul mate yet and I tell them that they are partially correct. Although I do not believe that there is a special one, I believe that there are special ones. There are certain people that mesh well with you and they are prime relationship material due to them having similar interests and beliefs, but it’s nothing mystical or heavenly. You are lucky to find one of these primary matches, and if you fall in love then it is something special, but if your soul mate should cheat on your or take a dirt nap before you do, you can still meet another soul mate. And if you are under the age of twenty-two and you genuinely believe that your are currently with your soul mate, then congratulations, but keep your eyes open while you kiss so you can spot that new love of your life because there’s a pretty good chance that your current fling isn’t going to last. Love is good for you and you shouldn’t save it while you go through the lifelong search for your imaginary soul mate. There are lots of people that share your same interests and these are the people that you should share your peen or vajeen with as well; marriage is also good for you but it is still optional. 

The hell with this shit, I’m going to bed now. I am combatting the rising heat crisis in my underground sweat lodge by leaving a few of the ground level windows completely open all day and night and I have fans strewed about in an organized fashion to create an inhaling and exhaling effect with my apartment playing the part of the lungs. The windows are large enough for any wild animal or moderately sized human being to crawl through, and although I am fearful of a cat or an opossum crawling in while I am asleep, I am also hoping for it. I would enjoy having the opportunity to break up this monotony of paying bills and buying material shit that I don’t even need and instead battling a beast that comes from a world of survival, a world where money and friendship have no value, a world of kill or be killed. My apartment now feels very outdoorsy and I enjoy the fresh airflow and the natural stink, but I fall asleep attentively listening for the pitter-patter of little feet scurrying through my dwelling, so I can jump out and terminate the vital processes of the four-footed foe that stepped into my fucking turf. I would smash the shit out of the little bastard with a dumbbell and then before he died I would skin him and slowly remove his entrails with a kitchen knife. Then I would place the mangled carrion upon the doorstep of the car seat sniffing mud flaps that live upstairs, using the blood and fluids of the carcass to draw a pentagram and the word ‘REDRUM’ on their door. And then I would return to my bedroom to fall asleep to the sounds of my own laughter.  

Very Long Random Thought on Trayvon Case

Trayvon Martin was shot and killed on the night of February 26, 2012. His killer, George Zimmerman, was found not guilty on July 13, 2013. In the 513 days between Trayvon’s death and Zimmerman’s acquittal, in the cities of Chicago, New York, Los Angeles, Detroit, and Baltimore, their fellow black compatriots murdered a total of 11, 106 black people. However, swarms of black people are currently holding rallies around the nation to protest the lack of justice in the one singled out case where a half-white man shot a black teenager in what was legally ruled as self defense.

Now I call black people “black” unless maybe they were originally from fucking Africa. Charlize Theron is as white as Daenerys Targaryen’s bush but she is from South Africa; therefore she is more African-American than any black person that’s never ventured further than the parking lot of their neighborhood Walgreens. I have spent much of the past few weeks either sitting on my ass or laying on it because I keep having lower back issues, so trust me, I have thoroughly reviewed all of the ins and outs of this case. After watching the entire video of Zimmplepopper’s police interview the day after he shot Trayvon, I cannot believe that this shit ever went to trial. The Zimmdenburg told the interviewing officer that he got out of his car to follow Trayvon, he somehow lost view of Trayvon, then Trayvon came out from behind a bush in the darkness and asked, “Why the fuck you followin’ me?” Then Zimizimcocobop said he reached for his cellphone at his side, and that’s when Trayvon punched him in the face and held him down. He said that his shirt had come up a little bit and Trayvon saw the gun. So Trayvon said, “Oh you gunna die now muhfugga.” and proceeded to pummel Zimmchini’s goofy ass. It was when Trayvon persisted in the beating of Zimgipper and then began to pound Zimmlerz’ head into the ground that he managed to get his gun free and fired one shot into Trayvon’s chest. The evidence showed that the barrel was in direct contact with Trayvon’s chest when the gun was fired and that it was fired at an upward angle, suggesting that Trayvon was on top during the fight. And another big fucking ‘also’ is that the eyewitness stated Trayvon was on top during the fight, AND Zimmlingding even said that he was yelling for help before he was aware that there was any kind of 911 recording of the incident. Oh, oh, and get this. If a police officer is having their head pounded into the pavement by an assailant then they have the legal right to use deadly force, and oh, get this, if Zimmingway hadn’t shot Trayvon then Trayvon would have been charged with a crime; either assault or murder.

So what really happened was that there had been four recent robberies in the Zimbabwean’s gated community, and I’ll just let you guess the skin color of the suspects in those robberies, and when Zimperton saw a strange black kid in a hoodie wondering through his neighborhood he went to check it out. Trayvon saw some possible pervert following him, so he hid and then confronted the guy. When the supposed pervert reached for what could have been a gun, Trayvon punched him and held him down in self-defense. But when Trayvon continued to beat Zimzim’s ass, he defended himself from Trayvon. So it was a case of a wannabe thug and a wannabe cop colliding and then unnecessarily defending themselves from each other, and well, Trayvon brought Skittles to a gunfight and lost.

What really pisses me off is that the only people that have brought race into this incident are the black people involved. If you listen to the 911 call where it is claimed that Zimmpickle says, “fucking coons” under his breathe, you can clearly hear him saying, “fucking punks”. Even on a lubetube movie where some guy played the recording with diagnostics to prove that he did say “coons”, it was still obvious that he said “punks”. Some news stories said that he was being racist by calling Trayvon a punk; so calling a black guy anything other than African-American or your highness is now considered a racist remark. Trayvon referred to Zimmenstein as being a “creepy ass cracker” when he was on the phone with Rachel “The Harpoon Target” Jeantel before he died, and then he said, “oh shit, dat nigga still following.” The only racial slurs that were ever said came from the kid that was shot. And when Rachel Jeantel was asked on the stand if “creepy ass cracker” was a racial slur, she said no.

Okay, here is what I’m really bitching about. 11,106 confirmed black on black murders in a year and a half and the white man is still considered to be the one that is holding the black man down. I understand that up until fifty years ago the white people of America made it their duty to keep black citizens unequal and uneducated, and you can’t reverse that over the course of one or two generations. But at this point in time, when the president is black and Jamie Fox is going to be the villain in the next Spiderman movie, you cannot continue to blame all of your problems on inequality. For example, lets look at the prosecution’s key witness, Rachel Jeantel. She is nineteen years old, still in high school, unable to read her own letter because someone else rewrote it in cursive so it would be more legible than her own writing, and on her facebook page she lists her job as: “Mommy and daddy do work I just spend it.” The bitch speaks English and news networks had to use subtitles so the audience could tell what the fuck she was saying. And Trayvon Martin had been kicked out of school for having marijuana, he had videos of him and his friends starting fights on his cellphone along with pictures of him smoking pot and holding up handguns, and his mom had recently kicked him out of her house because she thought he was a thug. I understand that they’re teenagers and all teenagers are assholes. I think 99% of people can be labeled as being clinically retarded until the age of 25, but I and everyone else I know were working and at least trying to abide by the laws when I was that age. I know that neither Rachel nor Trayvon have any frame of reference when it comes down to slavery or being forced to use separate restrooms or sitting on the back of the bus and yet that is still used as an excuse for acting like a menace or remaining uneducated. Rachel has access to the same fucking public education as everyone else and yet I’m supposed to believe that she’s a dumbshit because she’s socially repressed?

With Al Sharpton and even Obama jumping on the blame the whites wagon, I quote Booker T. Washington when he said, “There is another class of colored people who make a business of keeping troubles, the wrongs, and the hardships of the Negro race before the public. Having learned that they are able to make a living out of their troubles, they have grown into the settled habit of advertising their wrongs – partly because they want sympathy and partly because it pays. Some of these people do not want the Negro to lose his grievances, because they do not want to lose their jobs.” That’s coming from a man that was born into slavery and lived in a time where black men were being lynched for talking to a white woman. This is about money and politics. I don’t entirely believe that Obama was ragging on ol’ whitey when he said that he could have been Trayvon 35 years ago, but he does exert a touch of dip-shittery by talking trash about the very justice system that he reign’s over. And Al Sharpton is just an old washed up piece of shit. If a white guy gave speeches about standing up against the black people that were robbing his neighborhood then he could be tried for instigating hate crimes, but black people are allowed to hate any other race for whatever reasons they want and nothing is wrong with that. Zimmdog was found innocent in a court of law and now clogging up streets with protests in cities that had zero involvement in the case will make the legal system in Florida change to favor the black man despite evidence that clearly pointed to Trayvon’s guilt in the matter.

Okay, I’m tired and ready for bed now and that was the reason that I began typing this bullshit in the first place. But overall, it is time for black people to stop blaming others. They are killing one another at 10,000 times the rate that white Americans are killing them, and yet the evil white man is still considered to be the limiting factor in their quest for success. Oh, and saying that the justice system is unfair because one out of every fifteen black men is in the prison system is ridiculous because they are in prison for committing serious crimes, not because they stole a pie from a window. Look at the Jewish people, they were put into slavery and impoverished for centuries and now they rule the fucking world! Need breeds strength and security puts a premium on feebleness. Stop complaining about what everyone else is doing and do it yourselves.

And I also would like to protest the case of Christopher Cervini. In Greece, New York in 2009, a 240 pound 42 year old former football player named Roderick Scott shot an unarmed 140 pound 17 year old named Christopher Cervini twice, and killed him. Cervini lived one block away and was drunk, and Scott had caught him in the act of breaking into his neighbor’s car with two of his friends. Roderick Scott said that the boy had rushed him when he shot him twice but witnesses said that the boys had their hands in the air. Cervini may have been drunk that night but he was an attending high school student with good grades and no criminal history. Roderick Scott was found not guilty of manslaughter and all charges were dropped less than a year later. Roderick Scott was black and Christopher Cervini was white.

It is 88.6 degrees in my apartment right now because the flaccid assmasters upstairs turned off the air conditioner again, gas is too expensive, I feel unsafe because drunken white people are stumbling around outside on Cruise Night, but I blame the black man for these hardships. That last sentence doesn’t make any sense at all, and that’s my point.

(And the picture at the top. Yeah, they spelled “Trayvon” wrong.)

Dear Facebook Diary 6/26/13

I have reason to believe that the facial expressions an individual makes while undergoing strenuous exercise are the same facial expressions that they would make during intense sexual intercourse. This is just one of the reasons that I try to avoid working out with family members and male friends, but I will gladly pump iron with another if I feel that a fit little lady is interested in being my spotter while I flex my nuts or if money is involved. On the rare occasions that I leave my miniaturized home gym for the bro infested UNK gym that’s filled with rimjobbers curling in the squat rack and questions of how much do I bench, I spend more time staring at the lady lifters’ faces rather than their asses. I find it more arousing and creepier to study their facial contortions while they exercise to get an idea of how a gasm-spasm would affect them instead of ogling their asses with simple thoughts of “I gonna put my baby in dat”. Yesterday I watched of Asians squint and squawk as they did their reg presses and then warking runges across the gym, managing to get in everyone’s way. The gym is not the only place where I am able to see people flaunting their O-faces in public; I also get to see unintentional sexual shivers at my favorite place on Earth, Wal-Mart.

So the other night I went to Wal-Mart at around 10:30PM to buy some eggs, tonic water, and frozen vegetables, but I came home with sweet potatoes and a lawn chair instead. There is a surprising array of characters that can be seen shopping at a Nebraska Wal-Mart during the store’s late restocking hours. Between the heavyweights that are pushing loaded dollies and zombies pushing floor sweepers about the store, the college students that put off grocery shopping until they’re about to go to bed and realize that they have nothing to eat the next day, and the unmoving mouth breathers that I see in the bread isle leaning on their cart and gasping for air due to their physical exhaustion from blinking, Wal-Mart is like an all night sexual orgy where nobody takes their clothes off.  Labored grunts and panting echo throughout the mother-store due to the emptiness of the great fortress at night. These people are interesting, but there is another group of late night shoppers that I find mysterious. These are the shoppers that bring their young children to the store. I have no fucking understanding of this whatsoever because more often than not it is a couple with their adolescent or pre-adolescent children hobbling through Wal-Mart with a cart full of Mountain Dew and Pop-Tarts way past the time that a child of that age should be in bed. Christ alive, I especially see no reason why both of the parents have to be at the store with the kids at that time of night. Couldn’t one of the parents run to the store to buy their diabetes ammunition while the other one acts responsible by staying home to put the kids to bed?

So I’m looking at the frozen vegetables and decide that sweet potatoes sound more appealing. While spending 5 hours trying to get one of those little clear plastic baggies to open so I could fill it with nutrient dense sweet potatoes I think about how the shit kicking redneck fag-enablers that live upstairs are gone for the summer, so I should buy a lawn chair to sit on their stoop and sip some la-la when the weather’s nice. I spent another 5 hours searching every goddamn isle of Wal-Mart’s vast womb for lawn chairs before realizing that they are located in the effing Garden Center. So I went into the Carrot Cottage and grabbed a glorious metal and green plastic lawn chair that I believe had been hanging on the wall since 1986. I chose green because that is my favorite color and it was the only color that was left.

As I left the Flower Tower and walked past the diet pills and protein powders situated in front of the pharmacy, which is placed there as an island of hope for the gravity challenged customers and as a way for lord Wal-Mart to suck more money out of their candy bar funds after they purchase their insulin and adult diapers for their Olestra leaking anuses at the pharmacy. Drooling and gazing at the bottles of dietary miracles was a female ambulocetus and a calicothere bull with their two young offspring, a Caucasian male Pac-Man and a cross-eyed little girl that made Somalians look like fat asses. Normally I wouldn’t have said anything but the mom was looking at the Hydroxycut bullshit so I said, “Don’t waste your money, all of that stuff is a hoax.” The family circus act rotated their heads towards me to see me wearing my sleeveless workout shirt and my fucking creatine breathing bicep veins pumping with anticipation of curling anyone that questions my nutrition factoids and the look on their round ET shaped heads was one of belief, and trust.

“What should we buy then?” Garbled the motherload.

“None of that stuff. You’re better off buying coffee or green tea and replacing a meal with one of them. That way you get an energy boost while taking in less calories.” I replied while making my pecs dance and my eyebrows bounce.

“But I ain’t a be a done a drinkin’ no a coffay or a grain tay.” Said the 7-year-old boy that weighed more than a high schooler. Perhaps these children slept during school hours to receive the higher learning of Wal-Mart at night.

I looked at the family’s cart to see it overflowing with generic two liter bottles of Wal-Mart pop, TV dinners, and fucking chocolate chip Pop-Tarts. You have either hit the lowest point in your life or you need to get out of bed before noon if you fucking eat chocolate for breakfast. Besides, if you don’t like strawberry Pop-Tarts then you are what is wrong with this country.

Anyway, I looked at the little sugar filled moron and said, “Well if you switch out the regular pop for diet pop then you cut around 100 calories from each glass, and if you eat an apple or peanut butter on toast you’ll get a lot more out of breakfast and it’s just as easy to make.” I had reached a new lowly level of fitness nerd by touting this simple knowledge at a Wal-Mart late at night, but this information appeased the herd. They immediately turned away from the miracle bottles and began to walk with me towards the checkout lanes and the produce isle that is beyond them.

The female earthquake had a smile on her face and the lurching male stared off into space. Actually when I come to think of it, I believe the father had his eyes closed the entire time. And both the small moon and the gaunt little girl grabbed my lawn chair to help me carry it to the checkout lane. That is when I was forced to lay witness to the O-faces of two underage children.

This majestic green lawn chair weighed all of ten pounds, maybe less, and these two underage genetic mutations were struggling with all of their might to carry it. The fat kid’s stomach was jiggling beneath his Spiderman shirt and the cross-eyed girl’s eyes went straight as they both gritted their teeth and broke a sweat carrying this chair that weighed less than my paycheck, and then the momma manatee joined in to help. Her along with the two child sized boogers that fell out of her vagina were squinting and grimacing while fighting the gravitational field of this tiny fucking lawn chair. Due to my knowledge of the gasm-spasm face’s direct correlation to the excruciating labor face, I was forced to view an incestuous ménage a trois of orgasms as I walked to the checkout lane. Sexually speaking, neither the Mr. Cox that lives upstairs nor the Mr. Cox that lives downstairs was happy to see this, and all three of their eyes burned with displeasure. I grabbed the chair from them with one hand and said, “Thanks, I’ll take it from here.”

I am still uneasy about the orgy that I witnessed at Wal-Mart. I am trying to avoid thinking about it too much because it was disgusting and if my mind finds some sort of a resolve to it then I might end up with some sort of weird sexual fetish that would make my mating ambitions even more bizarre and upsetting to others. So I am trying to forget this incident entirely.

Well, I am now sitting in my comfy green lawn chair sipping on some healthy Propel vitamin powder mixed with water and a hearty splash of Platinum Vodka.  And as far as that girl from Okcupid that was pulling on my heart strings goes, I spent an entire 2 minutes typing out this whole, “Hey how ya doin’? Welp, OK. Ya like my dick pic? Alright then, see ya later!” type of message and the heartless whore hasn’t even given me a response yet. Trifling cunt, I hope she dies of ass cancer.

Dear Facebook Diary 6/19/13

Dear Facebook Diary,

Talk about a shitty day. The stock market dropped 206 points, Tony Soprano died, obesity was officially labeled as being a disease, my back is hurting again and I’ve spent most of the day trapped in my crappy Wal-Mart wannabe Lazy Boy chair due to back spasms, I have been unable to exercise for over a week, and I am bored as all hell. I have spent the day raping random online contestants in Scrabble and playing other free online games, watching Internet movies on lobstertube, drinking three pots of coffee, consuming protein shakes and eating air-popped popcorn, reading the book “Think and Grow Rich”, and filling out a detailed profile of myself on Okcupid. Because nothing makes me think about love more than painful and sudden electric-like spasms coursing through my lower back which cause me to suddenly throw my laptop or cup of coffee across the room. I also told my landlord to do whatever he wanted with the air conditioning this summer as the conditioning command box is upstairs and I have no access to it and I figured that I would not be home for most of the summer; apparently his decision was to turn the air conditioner off.

I have joined and been banned from numerous dating websites. I was Tyrell Bogginz on, Omega_Jew_9000 on, Havin Bin Shavin on, Willow Ufgood on, I was Kellen Heller as well as Herp Derperson on a website for the mentally disabled called, and the list goes on. Apparently making fake profiles and leading people on is called “catfishing”, and I was unaware of this until fairly recent. I never used these phony profiles for financial gain or to do more than send stupid online messages. I just considered it a way to have fun while sitting on my ass and playing off of other peoples’ naïveté. However, I made a real profile on Okcupid as well as illustrating it with an actual picture of myself as opposed to finding a picture of a nerd or neckbeard on some random forum or That was a very important decision as I rarely post actual pictures of myself online and I have very few pictures of myself to begin with. I suppose it was because I browsed through some local ladies that had profiles on the website and I… I… I fell in love. I dare not say her name, as I do not wish to jinx the imaginary love connection between us, but when the cosmos aligned my index finger to clicking on her profile I viewed a beautiful photo of an athletic young woman within my age range that had given funny and nonsensical answers to all of the personality questions. Out of boredom, I answered 152 personality questions while polishing off another pot of coffee and after I had finished I found that my new online damsel and I had an 87% match! I quote the great John Beckwith when he stated that, “True love is the soul’s recognition of its counterpoint in another”, and it is exhilarating to know that I have found my counterpoint. Now I must muster up the seemingly insurmountable amount of courage that it will take to send her an online message or give her a ‘wink’ or ‘like’ or whatever the hell Okcupid uses to let someone know you’re digging what they’re laying down. What do I do? Do I write her a poem? Should I send her a picture of my penis? Should I ask her if she wants to meet for coffee or food?

Due to my poor standing with the universe, it’s most likely a fake profile or she is using a picture taken before her body lost its battle with the debilitating disease known as obesity. Besides, I rarely date and there’s little reason to break my dateless streak while living in Nebraska. Some have wondered if I have shunned the love of women but my love life is more akin to that of a hermit rather than a homo. Whatever, I’m going to sip on a toddy while showering my stinky body and then I’m gonna sweep this bitch off her feet with some sexy typing techniques. By the way, it is 84.6 degrees in my apartment right now and this red-hot online love is only going to make those numbers climb.

Dear Facebook Diary 6/14/13

I have a goal of one day working in the entertainment industry and technically my summer job has opened the door into the technical side of entertainment. As previously stated I am working for Suitable Sounds and Light Signals in Magnifico Isla this summer and it is wreaking havoc on my body. I actually enjoy physical labor as I am an enthusiastic meathead gym-jock, and I know that nothing can soften the hands and heart of a man faster than an easy paycheck, but I am getting pretty goddamn tired of spending 24 hours a day feeling as if my lower spine will snap by picking up my TV remote or pushing hard against a dry shit. The job pays okay and it has led me to being able to rub elbows with some moderately famous people, but the means to achieving a victory are as important as the victory itself. In other words, I am not sure if the juice is worth the squeeze.

It’s only a summer job and I have no real commitment to these people but I have this issue with loyalty whenever I take on a job. I was originally told that I would only work a concert every weekend or every other weekend, as well as loading and unloading the semi trailers before and after shows if I wanted some more money. However, it is quickly devolving into my working 8-16 hour shifts everyday for over a week at a time. I prevented this from happening to me this week by vomiting from either heat or exhaustion while at work the other day and now I am spending some time in Denver at my brother’s house until I feel like going back. Speaking of back, that is the real issue here. I royally deadlifted my lower back into oblivion three years ago, causing the dislocation of my L2 vertebrae and further fucked-up-ed-ness to the surrounding spine stuff. My doctor recommends my looking into having two of my vertebrae fused together and my chiropractor enjoys laying me on a table and escorting me through snap city every few weeks. Since my accident while trying to deadlift the Earth, I have managed to bring my body back to an outstanding example of how weight lifting and a consistent diet of protein and alcohol can raise the human body into the zenith of human physical capability and fitness. My boss at this job told me that I should stop working out in my free time so I would have more energy at work. He also said that he could run further than me despite the fact that he’s ten years older and smokes a pack of cigarettes or more everyday. I smiled but he wasn’t joking. Pffft, nigger please. I am by no means a speedy runner but I have the endurance of a nuclear submarine and this guys looks like he couldn’t outrun a dead animal.

That is the other thing about this fucking “part time” summer job. Other than about three people and the guys that run the place, I am working with people that have accepted their places at the absolute bottom of America’s social class system and they have no plans of ever leaving it. To me, a $500 check is not a pant-shitting amount of money. It’s enough to make me interested but in terms of spending it’s more like a weekend that got a little out of hand rather than a life changing amount of greenbacks. These other guys think that it’s enough to permanently sacrifice one’s body for and the only advice they have about me and my aching back is that I should “be a man and work through the pain”. There is a world of difference between living in the moment and living like there is no future, and these people tend to live the latter, which ultimately ends with them never creating any kind of a future for themselves. I have much more grit when it comes to getting what I want.

Okay, I’m done bitching for now. I am currently sitting in my brother’s guesthouse-turned-office in his backyard. My sister in law is working at the hospital and my nephew is inside with his nanny. My nephew, Liam, is two and a half years old and although I have not seen him since Easter he still remembers my name and worships the ground that I walk on. As soon as I arrived and exited the car yesterday he shouted “Luke!” and ran to me with his favorite book of cars and trucks. He then knelt before me with his head down, holding the book above his head in front of me as an offering of peace and his recognition of my powers. Then he grabbed my hand and showed me the lawnmower and I couldn’t really understand what he was saying. We’ve been playing cars and putting stickers on his little work desk as well as playing in the dirt and shit in the backyard. I tend to connect with kids because I made a conscious choice to never grow up while I was still immature enough to make those kinds of decisions. Everyone in my family is encouraging me to use my writing skills to make a living and I’m beginning to take it to heart. Writing and being a muscle bound fucking badass covered with cock veins and chock full of creatine are the only things that have ever stood out as natural talents to me. Oh, and being good with kids I suppose. Well anyway, my goal is to now exploit those talents to get me into the entertainment business or to just be my own boss. I will still graduate with a theatre degree from UNK, but not with the intentions of permanently working for someone else’s dream. My goal is to not be someone else’s bitch for a meager paycheck, but to become the man that my nephew thinks I am.

Dear Facebook Diary 6/6/13

This will be a very short entry as I am about to leave for Counsel Bluffs in 20 minutes to set up a Trace Adkins concert for tomorrow. I have permanently shoved off from my duty as Almirante of the Lucia y’ Javier Barbeque Armada and am currently spending my summer being employed at Confident Audibility and Illumination in Grand Island as a low-born minion, also known as a stagehand. This job pays fairly well but requires a ridiculous amount of physical labor and travelling. Although I am free from working the traditional Monday through Friday, nine to five schedule; I do work quite a bit and the work that I do is straight up prison level manual labor. I am also at the very bottom of the food chain in terms of status but the job has its perks.



            I spent this past weekend doing backstage grunt work for the Kings of the Mic tour in Council Bluffs and then the Black Crowes the next night. The first concert was a quartet of quadragenarians from the 90’s comprised of the African American rappers De La Soul, Ice Cube, Public Enemy, and LL Cool J while the crowd was comprised of every black stereotype known to America. A turbo-ghetto hoochie wearing a skintight full body $100 bill suit was pulled backstage and danced for me during the entire first show. I have never been to a rap concert before as I always believed that they would be a somewhat boring orgy of speaking ebonics and pick pocketing. However, I was wrong. Ice Cube and Public Enemy rocked the stage harder than anyone I’ve ever seen. I even fist bumped Ice Cube backstage and shook hands and said “hello” to Flavor Flav and Chuck D. Despite their Caucasian hating lyrics, Public Enemy were the nicest guys in the world.



            The Black Crowes rocked even harder. The crowd was larger despite the freezing ass rain and 30 mile per hour winds. I labeled most of their drum cases and shit for them because they were leaving for Europe the next day and wouldn’t have time to do it themselves, but the guys were still douche bags. I could care less how dickish any of the bands are because I still get to stay at the Marriot and eat catered meals all day. It’s nice.



What really sucks is that I lift weights often and it shows. So whenever it comes to lifting something heavy, everyone looks at me. I fucking hate that because I became a muscle wizard to get all the maidens and hat tips, not to break my back for chain smokers and a paycheck. My lower back is hurting again and if I blow it out then I’ll have to find a new job for the rest of the summer and I won’t be able to workout for another month or however long. So please pray for my lower back this weekend.

And don’t pay attention to the picture above this. It’s racist as all hell but I thought it was hilarious.